Ronda Rousey Thought Of Suicide After Holly Holm Defeat

Former UFC champion Ronda Rousey was in tears Tuesday while on Ellen, describing to the audience about how she thought about killing herself following her knockout loss to Holly Holm in November. 

The 29-year-old was hospitalized following her first UFC loss that ended with a KO kick to the head.

“Honestly, my thought in the medical room, I was sitting in the corner and was like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this? … Literally sitting there thinking about killing myself. In that exact second, I’m like, ‘I’m nothing. What do I do anymore? No one gives a s— about me anymore without this,'” said Rousey.

The fighter then explained how her relationship with boyfriend and fellow UFC fighter Travis Browne is what got her through.

“I looked up and saw my man, Travis, was standing there,” Rousey said. “I’m looking up at him and was just like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive.'”

Rousey then reflected on what the loss eventually meant to her.

“I did a lot of thinking on, why did this happen?” Rousey said. “I do believe all the best things come from the worst things. The worst things result in the absolute best things. I was trying to think, what is the reason for this and what my actual purpose is — and maybe just winning all the time isn’t what’s best for everybody”…

“I felt like maybe my role is, everyone has their moment of picking themselves off the floor. I’ve gone through several of mine, but no one had ever seen me go through it. Maybe I just needed to be that example of picking myself off the floor for everyone. Maybe that’s what I’m meant for. I really do believe I’m still undefeated because being undefeated is a choice. Everybody has losses in their life, but I choose to always be undefeated.”

Rousey hopes her next fight is a rematch against Holm, who defends her title at UFC 196 on March 5 in Las Vegas. 

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